Askew... Ask YOU!

Yeah... I had to share this one. Since completing my Florence + The Machine collection this summer... I'm always ready for more... and stumbled across this sexy remix. Love her.

Something is rotten in Denmark. I mean, it has to be - right? Here I am - ME - in love! And here's the thing... I keep waiting for him to jump out with the BOO face yelling - "Just kiddin!" Seriously. He is so sweet and so good to me there has to be something up... I'm a lucky girl. This man single handedly kicked up my Lady Death collection! (Woohoo! Who's Lady Death? WHAT! Bite your tongue! Only the coolest female comic character EVER!!!) He is awesome to bring home to the parents, kid loves him, friends love him, he's good looking, funny, artistic, AND.... he rubs my feet.

He's pretty much opposite from all the men I've ever been with and it's very scary. I don't know how to respond to the lack of drama. I also don't know how to feel about being accepted as I am... or loved on such an intellectual and physical level. All of this is not nearly as scary as feeling like damaged goods most times. Am I giving enough back? For the last several months I've felt like a sham. Trying to rapidly reprogram my brain and desperately trying to get over some things that I knew would take time. There was a moment the other night where he and I were very close. Now, in my pre-exclusive relationship with this man I did some serious investigation. I know HE would never hurt me... he would never hurt a flea. This I do know. But, with one slow moving hand that made its way around my neck mid-kiss I freaked out. Tears, blubbering, it was a foolish mess. My brain took me right back to that house, with that other man, hand around my neck with a much different purpose. What the hell! So he tells me: I'm glad you are comfortable enough to cry around me... we just won't do that... I'm sorry... you aren't damaged goods.

I am a crazy mess at times. It is the biggest comfort knowing that whatever I am, I am loved. But I think... instead of waiting for the other shoe to drop... or finding strangeness in my situation... I'm going to enjoy every moment of this. He's got the love.....